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DEPRESSION SAVED MY LIFE | Styled by Eva

Hello everyone!

You’re probably reading the title of this post and feeling… confused. I don’t blame you. In a way, so am I.

Last January, I was officially diagnosed. Depression and anxiety. Later, that diagnosis changed to ‘Obsessive Compulsive’. But that’s not what I’m discussing today.

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I think my depression started in my final year of college. I was hurt, badly, by the friends that meant everything to me. Over night, I was on my own.

Being on my own started all of this. And after all this time, after all the heartbreak and pills and even suicidal moments, I can finally say…

I can’t thank them enough.

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Depression has brought me closer to my wonderful family. In particular, my Mum.

Of course, she has been my best friend since birth (I love you) but having a condition as complex as this has brought us closer together than I could ever imagine. Yes, we still argue. Yes, we still get upset with each other and misunderstand the slightest things…

But we’re closer than ever now. And that’s amazing.

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Depression has found me the most incredible person to love and confide in. He hates being mentioned on this blog but I keep ignoring him.

Sam, I would never have met you if it weren’t for depression. Not only that, but that incredibly difficult time we went through from January to Summer has made us closer than I could have ever imagined.

I think that if we can get through that, we can get through anything. You’re my world and I won’t ever let you go. You’re the most important person in my life. I can’t even explain how grateful I am for meeting you.

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Depression has helped me find the real me. In those suicidal moments, when I hit rock-bottom, I had to build myself up again.

I jumped around from personality to personality, until I found myself again. That felt incredible.

It felt like I was an actor, taking my final bow and walking off stage and becoming myself. Like the play had been running for so long, for years! And then finally, it stopped.

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Depression has taught me to love my body. Around the beginning of March, I was put on some medication that made me gain excessive amounts of weight in an extremely short amount of time. I went from a size 10 to a size 16 in 2 weeks.

As you can imagine, this was not at all good for my body confidence. But it’s gaining that much weight that’s made me learn to love myself. It was like starting afresh, with a whole new body and learning everything that made it great.

It’s taken a while, but my body is awesome and I can truly say that it makes me happy.

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This post is a long and wordy one, but it’s important. I felt like my life had been ruined but instead it had been saved. It helped everything.

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I love you all,

Eva xx

14 thoughts on “DEPRESSION SAVED MY LIFE | Styled by Eva

  1. I love the positivity in this. I’ve suffered with depression for a lot of my teenage years and I’ve been through different modes of counselling and medication. I love the way you view the way it has affected you. This is a truly beautiful post.

    Faye Jessica | fayejessica.co.uk

    1. Thank you lovely, I mean every word. It’s strange how such an awful thing can change things for the better but for me, it really did!

  2. Loved this post. Thank you for or sharing Eva as I’m sure it will help and has helped a lot of people. Depression and entity can feel so lonely and 101 other emotions. I am so incredibly glad you came out feeling stronger and are in a much better place 💜

    Keep going, EVA! X glad I’ve found you and your blog x

    Sophie | http://www.trafotoz.com

    1. Thank you, gorgeous girl. It helps a lot to share this stuff online and get such lovely feedback from everyone! I hope some one else can use my experiences to see ‘the light at the end of the tunnel’, if you get my drift!

      I’m so glad we’re friends, I’m so glad I found you too! Xx

    1. Thank you girl, I totally agree! It’s normal to hit a low point but it’s important to find the best out of every situation xx

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